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A Year of Highlights: Reflecting on the Positive from 2017

by Jiz Lee on / Goals and Ideas

Initially, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write this. By most accounts, 2017 has been a “trash-fire” year. And I generally dislike the notion of giving value to the arbitrary start/stop date of a Gregorian calendar year, as if the passing of a minute hand can clear a slate. (Time ain’t nothing but a number?) But, a new year does provide an opportunity to reflect, to learn and prepare for the future. I do appreciate the positive aspects of recaps, best-of lists, and excuses to promote the best parts of life.

So here’s my highlights, from videos to photo shoots, porn policies to sex worker book love. Peppered with photos and videos, of course! NSWF, unless you work like me. 😉

First comes the porn

2017 started off with the release of FourChamber’s SPILL. I’m a long-time fan of Vex Ashley’s beautiful films, and enjoyed the chance to collaborate once again with Valentine, as well as work for the first time with Blath. Here’s a trailer: (You can watch the full film here.) 



The year also saw the final release of The Crush starring Bishop Black and myself on Bright Desire. The footage we shot came out in three installments, because we were given permission to be g-r-e-e-d-y performers, which resulted in many minutes of sex. If you want indulgent queer sex, this is a prime example. More than a year later, I’m still tingly. Do follow Bishop, as he’s brilliant.


I shot with Naughty Natural (I might be one of their first ‘out’ non-binary performers?) and my solo scenes have started to be released. Though I was hesitant to work for a “hairy” site, because I didn’t want my body hair fetishized in a feminine way – obviously hair is as natural and “normal” as ANY choice in body hair styling, amiright? – I found Silver’s work to be more about hair celebration, in gorgeous outdoor environments that totally hit my my ecosexual buttons. Stay tuned for a short video on the river, and fun outdoor workout scenarios.


One of my favorite roles to-date was with a new TrenchCoatX series, GAMER GIRLS, directed by Kayden Kross. In it, various real-life gaming ladies encounter fantasy scenes with co-stars of all genders. I got to play a video game avatar, which was a dream come true! April O’Neil was the sweetest. 

Watch the trailer, complete with explosive special effects.



In the Fall, I shot a collaboration DTF with the Incredible Evie Snax.

Pictures and poses

My experience filming SPILL wouldn’t be complete without the creamy after-photos captured by Blath.


You know that thing about cats and boxes that goes, “If it fits, I sits”…? Well, I feel that way about windows and other ledges spaces. “If it sills, I fills.” (Truly, this is not the first time I’ve angled myself into some kind of frame.) I will similarly never pass any opportunity to shoot with Max Lander.


I appreciate ASLAN Leather so much. Carey made me feel like a muscle-queer hero, modeling the new BOWIE Harness and other excellent BDSM gear. Here’s a little peek from the campaign:


Little in the Middle… I posed with a gorgeous group of people for Dark Garden Corsetry, who welcomed me as the lone non-binary model in the group. Ogle more photos with the Lingerie Addict, and see my specific Naturals Risqué Cincher in Honey. 


I posed for The Dark Arts! As a fan of his genre-defying images of people of all genders in bondage, I was really excited to get in his ropes and in front of his camera. I loved finding the power in restraint. A few of the photos are part of the new book (get a signed copy). Here’s a peek:


Evolution of a pose… keeps evolving! This was the second time I’ve posed for Los Angeles-based photographer Allan Amato and I’ve continued to explore postures of strength in relation to the camera, and confidence within my chest, specifically. This image will be part of the upcoming Seraph book along with the beautiful Natassia Dreams. (See a peek of our cover.)

Jiz Lee Allan Amato Seraph Nude Book


LeatharCore! Get inspired with these custom pieces designed by Apaulo Hart for his new website, Photo by Tristan Crane.


Speaking of Tristan, I was thrilled to participate in a non-binary portrait project with long-time photographer friend Tristan Crane. Here’s a peak at our foggy, forestry shoot. (More at


Porn politics

The big industry issue of 2017 came down to CalOSHA, and if they’d work with active adult film workers and our industry’s leaders like the Adult Performer Advocacy Committee and the Free Speech Coalition to adopt a comprehensive guideline that is appropriate for various production projects,  rather than a “one-size fits all” approach. As a condom-only performer by choice, I felt it important to advocate for performers’ agency as the best option.


“Still Working Sex Workers Art Show” presented beautiful visual and performative arts, with provocative photography series by Arabelle Raphael (which I hear is rumored to become a future book!),  and the dark, iconic imagery of photographer Rae Threat. Here’s Rae’s image from the show, purchased and framed by @sneakymiles!:


Each year I collaborate with a visual artist to design a holiday card for an end of year fundraiser. This year we raised a combined $1,405.00 for various causes and organizations such as TransLifeLine and TGI Justice Project. The card was designed by LESSER GOD ARTS and it’s so juicy good. (I have extra cards available, or free with a purchase of a book from my web store.) I’d love to send you a signed card with this striking image!


My first erotica piece was published in ASAROTICA, a collection of erotic short stories written by porn performers and edited by Asa Akira! I read it for the first time in public at San Francisco’s Book Passage with Dana DeArmond and Asa herself.


My article “Ethical Porn Starts When You Pay For It” was published in the new anthology ASK: Building Consent Culture edited by Kitty Stryker. To see my little essay is surrounded by true brilliance makes me humbled to be included.

I randomly stumbled across a picture of someone reading Coming Out Like a Porn Star on the NY Metro through the Instagram account @SubWayBookReview. (And it was @Gutter.Face!) Now if only it can get picked up by @HotGuysReadingNYC…  

My biggest book-related news: earlier this year I read THRIVING IN SEX WORK and I loved it so much, I asked its author Lola Davina if I could sell copies of her book along with Coming Out Like a Porn Star. The 2-book set is a pairing of heartfelt advice and anecdotes, written by sex workers for sex workers. The idea to offer her book inspired me to create a web store to sell a number of books that are important to me. (Signed and shipped world-wide!)


I’m grateful for the recognition by XBiz and AVN earlier in the year with “Mainstream Crossover Award” nominations for my role as the pro-dom/me “Pony” in Transparent. I also attended the Toronto International Porn Festival to represent Pink and White Productions; our films SNAPSHOT and BED PARTY: Jack HammerXL and Nikki Darling won, as well as “Best Orgasm” going to Goodyn Green’s Blue Room starring Mad Kate and myself. The year ended with Pink and White named “Best Porn Studio 2017” by the San Francisco Bay Guardian.


This year at Pink and White was action-packed! I’m so blessed and impressed to witness what our tiny company is able to accomplish. Earlier in the year, we relaunched PinkLabel.TV, thanks to the hard work and magic that is Chris Lowrance. We also released Shine Louise Houston’s SNAPSHOT, my first role as Assistant Director/Associate Producer. The film premiered at San Francisco’s Frameline, and screened around the world, including the British Film Institute, where I had the pleasure of traveling to London to speak on a panel with UK porn activist Pandora/Blake and Myles Jackman, the lawyer who coined the phrase, “Pornography is the ‘canary in the coal mine’ of free speech.” Shine and I also travelled to Germany for the PornFilmFestival Berlin, where PinkLabel.TV sponsored the European PorYes Awards. SNAPSHOT was honored with “Movie of the Year” at the Toronto International Porn Festival, and is nominated for the 2018 XBiz Awards. Shine and I appeared on the BBC’s “Queer Britain” to talk about LGBTQ representation in pornography, and my year was made when CrashPad got a mention in TEEN VOGUE!  I started our closed captioning project, and we welcomed so many new studios to our little indie porn home on the internet. I know I’m forgetting a million more moments… but let’s just say it was a good year for PW Inc. (Here’s a pic of videographer Ajaporn and I, along with the lovely Kelly Lovemonster at the “Best of the Bay” party.)


What else…

Let’s see… Oh, I did a great interview with Scarleteen! There’s more personal things I’m forgetting… and some moments I’m intentionally omitting, like passing of friends and family that I’d prefer to keep private. It’s been such an intense year. To keep my head above water, I worked harder than ever, focusing on what I could access, where I could create positive momentum, how I could uplift others. I also continued to build structures of sustainability and self-care; I’m still “keeping it moving” with triathlon training and races, and increased my strength training. Working out, which something I do almost daily, has been a vital part of combating burn-out. It’s enabled me to find balance, forces me off the computer to clear my head, and helped hold myself accountable to health as a priority. I’ve never felt better! 

Thank you

I’m grateful for your support in ways large and small, from book purchases to retweets, from geeky emails to press inquiries. Let’s come together for action, intention, and more adventures to come in the year ahead! (“Come together”… see what I did there? Eh?… Ugh, fine…. 🙂 )

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Fisting Day!

by Jiz Lee on / Goals and Ideas

International Fisting Day is October 21st!

You ready for a monster post? Well grab your lube, lay back, and relax. It’s late on Thursday night and I’m typing this out at one of my favorite bars, El Rio. San Francisco just felt it’s second earthquake today. It makes me shiver thinking about the fragility of our lives, the great divides between the earth and our existence. And then, you know, there’s fisting. Crossing my fingers the ground below my feet withhold a mighty quake, let’s get this blog going.

In 2011, I was chatting with queer pornographer Courtney Trouble, about her recent film LiveSexShow, which was a fundraiser for the Center for Sex and Culture filmed during the non-profit’s annual Masturbate-a-Thon. I performed with Nina Hartley, for an audience of ‘pleasure activists’. The chemistry was high with me and Nina and we jumped into each other. We had a grand time, during which, her fingers and then her whole hand went inside my cunt. And then I came for the crowd and for myself, and for Courtney holding a video camera for the world to see.

At least, we hope the world could see.

For as long as I’ve done porn (2005), distribution companies and retailers have banned the act of fisting in the films I’ve been in. It feels like it’s always been this way, but that’s not true. It’s only been a little over a decade.

Anti-porn movements, in particular the administrations which coincide with them, have had a bone to pick against pornography. For obvious reasons, I’m pro-porn, sex-positive, and a firm advocate of consensual, ethical, and artistic erotic imagery. The act of making porn is a brave, powerful, and righteous thing. We’re often representing marginalized communities, taking power through creating our own images of desire. As Shine Louise Houston infamously says, that as a queer woman of color, it’s especially important for her to create her own sexual images. And I completely and passionately, agree. Explicitly demonstrating our pleasure shows examples of healthy sexuality that have long been denied in queer stories from Hollywood, or sex education classes. Safer sex? Check. Communication? Check. Equal gender agency, right here. Lube? Stays in the picture.

I’ve appeared in DVDs I knew would not include fisting, beginning with my very first porn scene with my lover at the time, Syd Blakovich. It didn’t make sense that fisting couldn’t be shown, but I tossed it up to it being the fact that porn is marketed and driven by a lot of assumptions about what sells, what sex should look like, what the people who have sex should look like, yada, yada, yada. To the director’s credit, she let us do it and shot from the elbow up. Still, what’s the harm in it being shown? How could fisting be important enough to see?

Some Fisting FAQs:

Why is fisting important to you?
My first experiences with hand sex, where my body took in the entire fist of a lover, happened around a time of galactic sexual exploration. I was in my early twenties and it was mind-blowing. The orgasms were intense and I was in an open relationship and was dating a lot of people so it was exciting for me to have sex with friends, check the adult dating website as many times as would want to and teach them how to fist me, to fist others, and to really enjoy practicing sex in a safe way and to experience this with lovers of all kinds of genders and sexual orientations. It was so much fun. Fisting is about being really present and in your body, and ready for a good time.

Why do you love fisting?
What I love about fisting someone vaginally (or through their front hole, if they don’t associate with the v-word) is feeling them TAKE ME IN. There’s a moment where the person just opens up to you. Once inside, they’re warm, wet, and every little movement you make can be felt. It’s something that may take time. Fisting is something that doesn’t necessarily happen right away. You put a finger in. Then two. Then three, four, and then… and sometimes after long and gentle coaxing, the thumb. Sometimes lovers can try several times in sex before fisting happens. But once you’re in, it’s golden! You can angle your hand for G-Spot stimulation. You can find your lovers’ “A Spot”, which is just under the cervix towards the back. Some like to feel a bit of pressure there. You can carefully stroke and “jerk-off” the cervix, as if it were a small, internal cock. Unlike using a strap-on or dildo toy, my hand can feel every motion. It’s incredibly intimate and really sexy. If the chemistry and connection with my partner is strong, I can come from penetrating with my hand!

As someone who loves to receive a fist, I enjoy an unparalleled feeling of fullness. The most sensitive areas of the vagina are just within the first few inches inside. I like to use my kegel and pelvic muscles to grip snugly around a lovers’ wrist, which can be compared to the girth of a medium-large dildo. Deeper inside, pressure feels really good for me. I like to rock my hips against a lover’s hand, or hold very still and squeeze hard, creating a game where I try to hold their hand tightly in place as they move against me. I do my kegel exercises and am pretty strong so I have a lot of control over my vaginal muscles and can make myself very tight, or, allow myself to stretch open. Or pulse between the two extremes. Combining clitoral and vaginal stimulation, the network of nerves and contracting of muscles orchestrate some of the most amazingly intense orgasms I’ve ever had.

What do you say to people who think it’s dangerous or scary?
Some people think fisting is intense in a bad way — that it hurts. But anyone who loves fisting knows that it can be the most intimate and beautifully connecting experience with a lover. Or a really fun in a three-some — I’ve held the hand, fingers locked, with a lover while the two of us have fisted a friend. I’ve also had both my fists inside two different lovers at the same time, while they kissed intensely. I’ve 69’ed with fisting, and I’ve even fisted myself!

Fisting isn’t any more scary than any kind of unwelcome sexual advance. However many people don’t know that much about it. We learn about sex as only being penis-vagina intercourse. But sex is so much more! We don’t learn much about sexual anatomy, how to communicate with lovers, or about pleasure. In fact, when we see a fist, we may be more inclined to think of it punching someone in the face because we see images of violence more common and at a younger age than we do sex. (ie: Cartoons show characters throwing punches and shooting guns, yet wont show even a bare breast.) In “This Film Will Not Be Rated”, we see the MPAA approve violent scenes with more leniency than they do sex scenes, especially ones featuring female pleasure. So when we as a culture are more familiar with a fist being used to harm someone, it’s no wonder that someone who hasn’t had a healthy sex-positive education about fisting would assume it is painful. In our culture, we see fists as weapons. Let’s embody the revolutionary icon of the fist as a symbol of progress.

What’s your experience with fisting?
Personal love of the topic aside, my work in adult has primarily featured fisting. In fact, I fist in my films more often than I’ve worn a strap-on. This may come as a surprise to many DVD buyers, who would never see the act as it’s been edited or angled out of the scenes, with the exception of online website content for queer porn sites such as I’ve also performed as a demo model for Fisting Demonstrations in adult classes such as Reid Mihalko’s Iron Slut: Sex Educator Showdown, and for couples’ sex education nights at’s armory. I have also covered fisting as a guest lecturer on sex ed at colleges and universities.

Why is it okay to show fisting ONLINE, but not in a hard copy DVD?

Well, here’s what I know.

DVD distributors, retailers, and porn producers, are afraid to SELL porn if it means they might be charged with an obscenity. To date, some men are in jail or have had court orders for showing “obscene” content, such as John Stagliano and Seymore Butts. This content includes female ejaculation, enemas, and in 2001, fisting. The charges in the case of fisting were dropped with an plea bargain for a meager $1,000 fine. However this scared distributors because since that date, at least in terms of the companies who have distributed my films, fisting was NOT to be shown. If fisting was present, footage was edited out if it was visible, or left in if the camera angle was such that you couldn’t tell fisting was occurring. Why fisting?

Fisting is on the Cambria List of sex acts not allowed for inclusion in content meant for physical distribution.

From PBS:

On January 18th, 2001, Adult Video News reported on the so-called “Cambria List.”  Paul Cambria, a longtime attorney for the porn industry, was involved in the list’s preparation. The list is controversial within the industry and interpretations differ on how it was meant to be applied. Some in the industry say it represents guidelines for the box-covers of adult videos, not for the sex acts they depict. Nevertheless, there is wide agreement that the Cambria List shows how the adult industry is seeking to be more careful, fearing a potential crackdown on pornography by the Bush Administration.

The Cambria List:

Box-Cover Guidelines/Movie Production Guidelines

Before selecting a chrome please check facial expression. Do not use any shots that depict any unhappiness or pain.

Do not include any of the following:

  • No shots with appearance of pain or degradation
  • No facials (bodyshots are OK if shot is not nasty)
  • No bukakke
  • No spitting or saliva mouth to mouth
  • No food used as sex object
  • No peeing unless in a natural setting, e.g., field, roadside
  • No coffins
  • No blindfolds
  • No wax dripping
  • No two dicks in/near one mouth
  • No shot of stretching pussy
  • No fisting
  • No squirting
  • No bondage-type toys or gear unless very light
  • No girls sharing same dildo (in mouth or pussy)
  • Toys are OK if shot is not nasty
  • No hands from 2 different people fingering same girl
  • No male/male penetration
  • No transsexuals
  • No bi-sex
  • No degrading dialogue, e.g., “Suck this cock, bitch” while slapping her face with a penis
  • No menstruation topics
  • No incest topics
  • No forced sex, rape themes, etc.
  • No black men-white women themes

Curious about the legal significance of the list, I emailed Queery Bradshaw, who has a legal background and she confirmed what I expected about the aspects behind several porn obscenity trials when they come to bringing visibility to marginalized sexual practices. Particularly in terms of freedom of expression.

She wrote back:

It’s a double edged sword because the more a topic, scene, or act becomes mainstream, the least likely it is going to be considered obscene against the community standard. But, if you’re constantly censored for fear of being prosecuted, you can’t make those acts known or common place. I know authors that have had fisting (or the mention of sex at all even) censored out of their beautiful non-erotic literary works of art. People are afraid and the only way to stop that fear is to talk about it, but you don’t know if you talk about it if you’re going to be prosecuted. And that is why I totally agree with you Jiz that this is completely and totally a free speech censorship issue and that we need to talk about how healthy it is so people stop seeing fisting as this thing that people do to degrade and dishonor another (which is justification often for censoring anything).

Despite the Cambria List, there’s also the Miller Test, which courts have used in efforts to determine what might be obscene when there’s no written rule. Here’s Constance Penley talking about obscenity and pornography.

The Miller test was developed in the 1973 case Miller v. California. It has three parts:

  • Whether “the average person, applying contemporary community standards”, would find that the work, taken as a whole, appeals to the prurient interest,
  • Whether the work depicts/describes, in a patently offensive way, sexual conduct specifically defined by applicable state law,
  • Whether the work, taken as a whole, lacks serious literary, artistic, political or scientific value.

The work is considered obscene only if all three conditions are satisfied.

The first points are up to the standards of the community. Which community? Whichever applies! That’s what makes it so vague. The last one in particular is held up to whatever is reasonable to a person of the United States as a whole. The Miller Test is basically the reason why it’s okay to have more freedom of sexuality online, where it’s more difficult to determine online community, than in physical DVDs, where a community can be deemed as a geographical space. There are many zipcodes in the United States where it is illegal to mail pornography.

You’d think as porn consumption shifts from DVDs to digital streaming, we’d see the ban from fisting lifted. Not so. Due to the residual fear of being charged, especially if it’s seen as not being work the risk, most large VOD sites now ban the act as well.

So, here we are. An unnecessary censorship of a common sex act is what prompted Fisting Day. The desire to have education lead the way. We have to let people know it’s okay, even political, to love fisting.

If you want to watch me fisting, I recommend most of my scenes on, including cool double fisting and simultaneous fisting.

And make sure to check out the first “expert’s guide” sex ed movie to cover fisting, CrashPad’s Guide to Fisting by Shine Louise Houston, available on (streaming for just $9.99) or as part of a membership to (Look for my funny cameo!)

Spread the word about Fisting Day, and celebrate by trying, doing, reading, watching, talking, learning, or teaching.

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