This week I was scheduled to shoot a porn scene, one that I was very excited about doing. I fantasized about it, I kept notes with ideas about it, I was very much looking forward to doing it, and making a decent amount of money, too which I was hoping I could use towards my [...]
Entries Categorized as 'Goals and Ideas'
Seeing the Forest through the Trees
March 11, 2010
Back into Swing
March 3, 2010
Just when I thought things were feeling slow in pornolandia, now it seems that there are a million opportunities and projects underway. I’m looking forward to some very exciting shoots coming up — more info on those soon — and I’m also very very excited about a new project that I just launched called Karma [...]
Porn-paid Vision
February 24, 2010
I’m excited to announce that I went to my LASIK pre-consultation today and it’s confirmed — I’m approved as a healthy candidate for the operation. I’m getting LASIK done next month!
When I started this site in 2007, I had a Paypal account set up to receive donations to go towards my hopeful surgery. I [...]
Momentums
February 20, 2010
It’s a Saturday night, and I’m at home for a moment uploading some photos I took for my digital photography class before going out again for a bit. Taking a photo class has given me a bright pair of eyes, and I’m seeing so much detail in the world it’s startling. The rooftops of buildings. [...]
Comparing a Slut Kit to Preparing a Survival Kit
February 9, 2010
In the aftermath of the earthquake in Haiti (donate to Red Cross or Doctors without Borders), I’ve started to have recurring dreams about preparing a survival kit for an upcoming earthquake. In my dream, I am laying in my bed, scanning my room and picking out which items I would pull together to put in [...]
Black & Gold… Queers on the AVN Red Carpet
January 13, 2010
Jinx! This is a “Blog Jinx” by me and Courtney Trouble. From time to time we agree to schedule a blog post on the same topic, to be published at the same time. I’ll show you mine if you show me yours… Check out hers at CourtneyTrouble.com.
It’s been three full days since I’ve returned [...]
Home
January 10, 2010
I’m freshly arrived back in the bay, reflecting on my 2010 AVN Awards & AEE experience. I feel rejuvenated, spurred, heavy, and simply glad to sleep in my own bed again. More thoughts and pics to come. Until then, this song felt appropriate for my return: “Home” by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros.
Watching vs. Seeing
January 6, 2010
Every time I think about the upcoming AVN Awards Ceremony and my nomination for “Best New Web Star” I get a chill that runs through my body and ends up at the flesh on the bottom of my butt as sharp goosebumps. January 9th rapidly approaches and I’m realizing that I’m really fucking nervous about [...]
Queer as Money
June 2, 2009
A friend handed me a flier today with a great way for folks to express their anger about not being seen as equal. You know how some people are saying that they wish they could have their tax money back? No Taxation Without Representation, etc? Well, you might not be able to get your Benjamins [...]
Fuck Competition
May 23, 2009
There’s a pun in this title, because I’ve recently let insecurities get in my way of having a good time being myself.
I’m going to skip the details as it’s a little too close to home for me to publicly recount the feelings I had. While I’m disappointed that I felt such negativity effect me, I [...]
