It also happens to be queer friendly as well; Courtney Trouble and I shot for one of the scenes, and it was a smash hit. I was really flattered to be a part of it, not only because I applaud the creation of a kink-focused site that features more diversity, and the accomplishments of it’s creator Kelly Shibari, but also because I got to share the moment with Courtney. It set the stage as her emergence into a new level of kinky/poly porn performance for the award-winning director.

We staged our scene in the incredible shower at the home of Jamye Waxman.

I tied Courtney up (in a pretty mean way — with hemp rope that tightens when wet) and subjected her to an ice cold rinsing. I made her suck my cock while her face was pummeled with freezing water, and then shoved her in the tiled corner, where I fingered her until she came, shivering, and then left her sopping wet.

It wasn’t the nicest thing to do for a friend I care so much about and for her first leap into kinky porn.
But then again, being nice wasn’t the point. (Besides, look how much fun it was — you can see me smirking at how cold the water felt. It was *very* cold.)

Watch our scene at PaddedKINK.com!

There are a couple of things this brings up for me, including the idea of “cheating”, as I believe that anyone in any kind of relationship has the ability to “cheat”. Perhaps  in this case the author defines “cheating” as something of a monogamous relationship that is non-consensually non-monogamous. Ya dig?

The other idea that comes up for me is the inclusion of sex workers within the idea of sexual relationships. Do relationships end when commercial gain begins? I think the lines are blurry. For instance, many porn performers  are in monogamous and open relationships of all kinds. Which isn’t surprising, as it’s a job like any other. (Ugh… taxes…) How performers define their sexual practices for work or play varies greatly; I’ve had fascinating conversations with stars who consider themselves and their non-performing partner monogamous (often not knowing much about the word “poly”) yet have specific agreements and arrangements within their relationships (including sex/affection off-camera) that many in the poly community would consider common within open relationships. So you can be monogamous and still have sex with other people. Can of worms, huh?!

I’d love to sit down and write/read more about this. Please feel free to comment with any links to resources you may have. A few adult industry people  I known talk about open relationships, such as  Nina Hartley, and Tristan Taormino who has written Opening Up: A Guide to Creating and Sustaining Open Relationships — I swear I’ve bought 6 copies of this book!

I’ve written a little, mostly just posting information I get excited about. If you’re interested in my previous posts, you can find a few here such as Six Basic Needs and A postcard on healthy communication from CUAV (CUAV = Communities United Against Violence). Until then, it’s a wide world of sex… so of course it’s messy!

It’s going to be screened at the Kick-Off Party of Good Vibrations‘ Independent Erotic Film Festival (IXFF). The event’s happening at El Rio in San Francisco, and promises to be a good time had by all.

Photo: NoFauxxx.com

I sometimes get nervous watching a film that I’m in on the big screen in the company of friends and co-workers. But dammit, I’m excited about seeing this film. I’m also looking forward to supporting Courtney, a dear friend of mine. Some of you may recall that she and I co-starred in In Search of the Wild Kingdom/The Wild Search. I’ve also appeared on NoFauxxx.com a bunch and have performed in a SLEW of her recent releases like Roulette and Nostalgia.

In Speakeasy, I play a HIGHLY femme version of my faggy self. Courtney asked me to pick out the dress, and we opted for hairy legs and armpits. Lorelei did my make-up and it was a transformation! It did feel a little funny hanging out with all the cast and going out to grab a bit with HELLA lipstick and eye lashes on… add to that my typical boyish aesthetic and when in company of so many hot transmen, FtM and Genderqueer Fags and Men, I was feeling pretty darn girly.

I’ll be curious to see how some folks receive the gender make-up of this film. For example, many performers don’t identify as lesbian and I wonder if some retailers might place their female-born bodies into a tricky categorization. Whether Men, Trans, Femme, Gay, GenderQueer (me!), or any other sexual/gender identity, I’m sure of one thing: this is one queer film.

Gender aside, I had an amazing time shooting my scene with Dallas Fivestar. It is a suspension scene and I really found the eroticism of the rope and my security in Fivestar’s hands. Absolutely incredible. It was a good learning experience about being a good sub and also shooting bondage for the camera.

Here’s a sneak trailer,  in Black & White;  this is different from the actual footage I’ve been told.

Courtney Trouble’s “Speakeasy” Trailer! from Courtney Trouble on Vimeo.

When the year is done, it is thrown into a box where I can then look back and say, holy shit. What a year!
It feels that way thinking back at relationships, too.

April 7th 2009 marked the 4 year anniversary of me and Shawn (aka Syd Blakovich). More specifically, the fourth year since our very first date. It’s been an open, loving, intense, emotional, supportive, momentous, art-filled, passionate bunch of years. We rocked SF’s artsphere with twincest, our multi-genre performance duo. We bukkake’d the adult industry with a smash hit of Pink & White and other queer works by filling the big screen with our love juices. We gathered around friends and lovers to create art, community, sex, chaos, and sleeplessness. We experienced the passing of loved ones and the births and joining of new lives. And we redefined our love and relationship more times than Madonna – only without the cultural appropriation.

Here’s a brief trip down laptop memory lane… to continued love-art-porn (and documentation)!

Dyke March 05, back when I could hold my own with her in the ring.

The Crash Pad publicity photos. WTF is going on with our hair?

Hyphen interview, some of the more classy photos, thanks Leilani.

Our own are pretty trashy… this is twincest’s version of Mary Kate & Ashley

Unisex, photo by Mia Knockano

One from our bathtub series. We clean up well.

Can this please end up somewhere on the internet as a WTF photo? Credit: TWINCEST.NET thx!

Censorship panel discussion at the old location of Femina Potens.
Despite the RAD people on the panel and the engaging discussion, we all look bored out of our skulls.

Fun times with Baguettes at an early Pink & White Meet and Greet party. I think Violet Blue took this image. Couple on the right is Princess Donna and Lorelei Lee.

Still from BehindKink.com documentary on how Shawn and I trashed Mr. Pam‘s kitchen.

One of my favorite photos, taken by Shilo McCabe, because you can see Shawn’s wedding ring…

Shawn and I have an open relationship, which sometimes includes group sexing.

I found these photos from my camera, time to put them online.

Our sand crab.

Awwww… the end. For now.

Love is a beautiful, dangerous, inspiring, and complicated kick in the ass. I’m in open relationships. In the past I was non-consensually  non-monogamous… aka I cheated, a lot. In the past five years or so, I’ve been learning how to communicate honestly, which included being more truthful to myself. That might be the hardest part — knowing what you want.

Every month or so, I go to a group meeting with my friends and lovers, and listen to what others have to say about love. Last night, we shared these two lists, which I’m completely fascinated by. I thought I’d put them here, in case they’re any use to any of you — sometimes I get questions about being poly, though issues around open relationships (time management is a big one) pertain to anyone regardless of our relationship style.

Six Basic Needs

We each have a desire to meet our basic needs; how we meet them is up to us. Will it be sustainable? Attainable? Destructive? Healthy?

1. Certainty – relates to security and safety

2. Variety

3. Connection / Love

4. Significance

5. Contribution (to something larger than ourselves, to community, etc)

6. Growth (personal growth, self-actualization)

Everyone has a different threshold for where this need is met. Ultimately, it’s about how the need gets met.

(Adapted from Tony Robbins and Vanguard Leather)

The Five Love Languages:

1. Words of Affirmation

2. Quality Time

3. Receiving Gifts

4. Acts of Service

5. Physical Touch

(www.fivelovelanguages.com)

Shawn and I performed at CounterPULSE Theater, with pinata replicas of our twin-like selves. It was a benefit for Jess Curtis/Gravity who will be performing their full length show in March. Jess introduced us. We invited the audience to come down and take a whack. (After a swig of Bicardi and 5 spins of course.) Our weapon of choice? This dildo, a blue whale penis replica appropriately titled Moby Dick that we found in the Castro:

(That’s a 4″ base, folks. Real whale’s dick is 8 feet long.)

We ordered custom papered pinatas (I do believe the original design of them were Dora the Explorer…) from a FANTASTIC shop called Rainbow Custom Made Pinatas (yelp) and fashioned them to look like ourselves in our first work Limerance. (Video promo excerpt)

Here they are waiting in my living room (scaring the shit out of my flatmates):

We then threw them in the trunk of a cab and headed to the theater.

Soon we’ll have a video of the performance. Basically the audience circled around us, taking turns beating us down with the dick. Inside the pinatas were goodie bags with pieces from past performances; a retrospective souvenir. 3-D glasses, plastic gun pellets, slide images, ping pong balls, postcards, glittered bacon, panties, and much more. (Unlike our past performances, there was no blood, no urine, and no poop.)

By the end of it all, the audience got to take home a piece of our art, and the twins had been pulverized.

Legendary performance artist and academic Keith Hennessy (also here) followed our performance with an improvisation where he removed his own without removing his shorts, and then put on a pair of our undies he had grabbed from the broken pinatas on in the same fashion. To the audiences’ amazement, he was able to do it! (Sans one of s.)

Twincest may do our last performance in November (a funeral) so keep your eye out for that by emailing info (@) twincest (.) net to be added to the mailing list, and be sure to follow us @TwincestFuckArt on twitter.

Here’s a quick pick of the aftermath, save one tremendously teasing pin…

P.S. There’s a round two in the making…

Here’s a peek at one of the digital photos from the shoot. I will share more later. I’m also excited to see what qualities come from the aged film Terry used. Many shots that were taken that cold day. The barrack walls are covered in what Terry determined was chocolate pudding, probably left from some kids who obviously had a great time defacing the walls and glass windows of the many buildings on the property. The sound of crunching broken glass from busted light bulbs echoed loudly.

Well, we have some pretty efing cute shirts. It’d be way cool if someone wore one to our next show. We’re doing a benefit with Jess Curtis Gravity in January.But until then, the merch. Merch like real artists! ; )

From left to right: Fluid Bonded, What About the Fucking Children, I Scabies You

Why, it’s none other than Syd Blakovich (whom many of you know as Shawn from Pink & White Productions) who plays “Jesse” in the upcoming film Champion.

I’ve been star struck with this gorgeous genderqueer stick of dynamite since I first lay eyes on her at an API art show, SLIT many moons ago.

Since that time, we formed our art duo twincest and worked in a bunch of films from the first scene in The Crash Pad to a more recent scene such as one in Madison Young’s Art House that will be coming out sometime in the future. She has a following on Kink.com’s Ultimate Surrender…and recently guest starred as a dom on WiredPussy.com. She’s got a lot more lined up in the works but I wont offer any spoilers.

Over the years I’ve been inspired by her stamina… ahem… and the shear strength at which she throws herself headfirst into projects, ideas, design, companies, fighting, promoting (and usually creating) community, creativity, art, sex, porn, pussy, relationshipsssssss, love ….and always… with a passion and celebration of others, and an air of style and articulate finesse. It blows me away.

Shawn/Syd is:

“Like electrical dynamo powering a cannon that shoots sex sharks. That are on fire.” – Fan on CrashPadSeries.com

“…a full fledged homosexual extreme performance artist with a taste for pain. Which makes her almost as cool as Roxanne Modafferi in my books, although about 50 times more intimidating.” – FightLinker.com

Congrats Syd for your first front page over at Fleshbot.com with a hot article by Lux Alptraum– “A Champion in the Ring, in the Bed, and on the Screen“, it definitely wont be your last!